I’ve not responded to a WordPress daily writing prompt for what feels like months. I know, I know I always say ‘ so much has been going on.’ Truth be told it has… Where to even start? Firstly, I should stick to the writing prompt word ‘calling’, then update you as to why I have not blogged a personal blog for months.
When I saw today’s word it made me think of my own calling, why I write, how I write, what it really does for me? As that’s why I write generally for me. I also thought about when my true calling to write came, and how it came. The only person that knows this is my co-author Didi Oviatt so here goes, the whole world and it’s mum is about to know. My true calling came at a rather bitter sweet moment in my life. To the outsider it may appear as a sad time, truth be told I was probably the happiest I had been for a number of years.
My calling to write, honestly, not just here and there secretly but seriously meaning write novels and novellas regularly, came the year I decided to take off my wedding ring, divorce my husband, embrace the decision I had made to start over, leave him, raise my son (who was eighteen months old at the time) on my own. Yep! I finally ditched him I just had enough!! I laugh as I type now, because I never once shed a tear over it, I felt better leaving than staying it was a sense of relief to shed my ring. I threw myself into caring for my boy who I am sooooooooooo proud of and happy to have (who is now four), creating our security and new direction. Then out popped a 90,000 novel, a publishing deal, a re-vamp and self-publish of that novel, then an award for it. Shit! I feel even better about ditching that ring now. You see, once I did not only was I and my son happier, I was allowed to write I just could with no criticism, put downs, or bullshit. Leaving allowed me to become a better person a stronger person also an author.
I just never thought to take it seriously until I broke free, and took my nose out of another author’s novel that I was reading. I was (and still am) a big bookworm before I started writing. I also never thought about submitting my work to publishers before. I did it on a whim and stuck lucky I guess, but my mum would say ‘ no Kim you’re talented not lucky.’ Thanks Mum.
My calling was bitter sweet, writing did not and still does not ‘take away pain’ ‘take my mind off what happened’ put it this way I did not need any of that at the time, I still don’t and probably won’t ever. I just felt great being able to create. Not just stories, or articles but spend time at my sewing machine too, if I were not a writer I’d probably be a fashion designer or make-up artist I’ve said it so many times!
Fast forward two years down the line to 2017, divorce final, six books under my belt my calling in full swing what did I do….. I immigrated!!! 🙂 The reason why I have not had a real chance to do much writing wise or interact with you as I used to, is because I have been busy moving country I now live in France! I love London and I will always be proud to be British and from the UK’s capital that’s where I spent the first almost thirty-five years of my life. But for a better quality of life for my son and I, security, and a brand new start this is what’s best for us both right where we are now in a new part of Europe. London will always have a place in my heart.
So that’s it, that’s how my calling to write came about, I decided fuck this shit I’ll be happier and better off as a single mama, and so would my son we can do this. And that’s why I have been absent I have relocated to a place with 300 days of sun a year, better quality of life and for a new adventure and I hope one day to find my true husband…. after all I am a romance writer!
But guess what? I’m back y’all, ya better believe it to! I’m back with a force so I will be a lot more active writing and especially blogging. Now I have the time. I’ve made the leap and dedicating much more time to writing because I can… after all it is my true calling as a vocation in life, I’ve proven this to myself.