Daily Writing Prompt: Calling… My Calling Was Bitter Sweet, But Well Worth it!

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I’ve not responded to a WordPress daily writing prompt for what feels like months. I know, I know I always say ‘ so much has been going on.’ Truth be told it has… Where to even start?  Firstly, I should stick to the writing prompt word ‘calling’, then update you as to why I have not blogged a personal blog for months.

When I saw today’s word it made me think of my own calling, why I write, how I write, what it really does for me? As that’s why I write generally for me. I also thought about when my true calling to write came, and how it came.  The only person that knows this is my co-author Didi Oviatt  so here goes, the whole world and it’s mum is about to know. My true calling came at a rather bitter sweet moment in my life. To the outsider it may appear as a sad time, truth be told I was probably the happiest I had been for a number of years.

My calling to write, honestly, not just here and there  secretly but seriously meaning write novels and novellas regularly, came the year I decided to take off my wedding ring, divorce my husband, embrace the decision I had made to start over, leave him, raise my son (who was eighteen months old at the time) on my own. Yep! I finally ditched him I just had enough!! I laugh as I type now, because I never once shed a tear over it, I felt better leaving than staying it was a sense of relief to shed my ring. I threw myself into caring for my boy who I am sooooooooooo proud of and happy to have (who is now four), creating our security and new direction. Then out popped a 90,000 novel, a publishing deal, a re-vamp and self-publish of that novel, then an award for it. Shit! I feel even better about ditching that ring now. You see, once I did not only was I and my son happier, I was allowed to write I just could with no criticism, put downs, or bullshit. Leaving allowed me to become a better person a stronger person also an author.

I just never thought to take it seriously until I broke free, and took my nose out of another author’s novel that I was reading.  I was (and still am) a big bookworm before I started writing. I also never thought about submitting my work to publishers  before. I did it on a whim and stuck lucky  I guess, but my mum would say ‘ no Kim you’re talented not lucky.’ Thanks Mum.

My calling was bitter sweet, writing did not and still does not ‘take away pain’ ‘take my mind off what happened’  put it this way I did not need any of that at the time,  I still don’t and probably won’t ever. I just felt great being able to create. Not just stories, or articles but spend time at my sewing machine too, if I were not a writer I’d probably be a fashion designer or make-up artist I’ve said it so many times!

Fast forward two years down the line to 2017, divorce final, six books under my belt  my calling in full swing what did I do….. I  immigrated!!!  🙂 The reason why I have not had a real chance to do much writing wise or interact with you as I used to, is because I have been busy moving country I now live in France! I love London and I will always be proud to be British and from the UK’s capital  that’s where I spent the first almost thirty-five years of my life. But for a better quality of life for my son and I, security, and a brand new start this is what’s best for us both right where we are now in a new part of Europe. London will always have a place in my heart.

So that’s it, that’s how my calling to write came about,  I decided fuck this shit I’ll be happier and better off as a single mama, and so would my son we  can do this. And  that’s why I have been absent I have relocated to a place with 300 days of sun a year, better quality of life and for a new adventure and I hope one day to find my true husband…. after all I am a romance writer!

But guess what? I’m back y’all, ya  better believe it to! I’m back with a force so I will be a lot more active writing and especially blogging. Now I have the time. I’ve made the leap and dedicating much more time to writing because I can… after all it is my true calling as a vocation in life, I’ve proven this to myself.

 

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Book Review: Workings Of Energy In The Human Energy Field (Non-Fiction) by Dr. Z. Gojkovic 5 *Stars #amreading

 

 

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Title: The Workings of Energy in the Human Energy Field: A Psychic’s Perspective

Author: Zorica Gojkovic

Genre: Nonfiction

The happenings in your life are not erratic, whimsical occurrences. They are external expressions of the content of your energy field.

Before there is matter, there is energy. Your thoughts, beliefs, history and soul attributes exist as energy in your energy field. They create the reality that you know. When you change the content of your energy field, you change your life.

The Workings of Energy shows you how energy operates in your energy field and offers tools to successfully work with energy. When you have this crucial knowledge, you have power; you can consciously work with energy to create your life.

My Review:

Thank you to Enchanted Book Promotions for an ARC copy, in exchange for an honest review.

As a believer in “the universe” and its impact on our life, mind, body and soul this book really resonated with me. You don’t have to have this POV, or spiritual view point to enjoy this book. This is because this book  (to me)  is an advisory and informative book that can  help anyone. It can  guide you in many positive ways, even if you have never read about or believe in the universe, or these spiritual view points.  I read this book in one whole sitting one evening, that particular day was not a great one for me.  After reading I felt more in touch with what I needed to do, to shake the negative feelings. The next morning I woke up refreshed, empowered and most of all motivated.

I’m giving this book five wonderful and well deserved stars, as for me as a reader I experienced empowerment after reading. It also left me with some things to explore via journaling as well as some practical and informative tips to remain centred , so I can  carry out my important roles as a human, woman and mother. It was also really interesting to learn how psychics interpret things about people. I learned about energy and what this actually means. In many non-fiction books the word “energy” is mentioned a lot, yet many fail to address what this actually is, and which “layer” is relative to what kind of energy we have as people. I also learned and now understand “aura” , and how your thoughts, feelings and actions (good or bad) impact on the “aura”  you have as  a human, and project to others… also where the aura is! This little book   packs a punch as a good pick me up. I see myself dipping into this later down the line in life. Very interesting, very empowering, I felt good for reading it. I recommend this book to everyone, especially those who enjoy self discovery, ways to be centred or need a little pick me up reference to remain positive. Love and light for everyone in this short non-fiction book.

About the Author:

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Zorica Gojkovic, Ph.D., is a professional psychic consulting with people all over the world.She received her Ph.D. in English. Her dissertation is about evolution of  consciousness, mysticism and physics as they relate to the novel. Giving psychic readings has significantly expanded this original research. By reading energy in their aura, she helps clients heal core issues, realize their soul potential and experience ever-greater joy, love and peace.

More information and resources are available on her website, http://www.thetimeoflight.com .

Excerpt #1

“Nikola Tesla said, “If you want to know the mysteries of the universe, think in terms of energy, frequency, vibration . . . .” Who would have thought that giving psychic readings would have been a way for me to see this flow and action of energy, a way to discover the mysteries of the universe—and much more? Yet, that is exactly what happened.

I was born clairvoyant, but it was not until much later in life I officially began to use this ability by giving psychic readings. Those early days were filled with wide-eyed awe and nonstop discoveries. They permanently changed my life.

I was looking at people psychically and seeing them as maps of energy. I saw how they were constructed of energy. On top of that energy, the physical reality and earthly experience were built. (It is similar to adding the rest of the house once the frame is built.) Looking at this flow of energy, I was finally able to understand why we are who we are, why we are the way we are and why our lives are the way they are—and all this in the context of our relationship to the divine. These were answers to questions I had asked decades ago standing in front of my locker in high school mystified at the nonsensicalness of the world. Miraculously I believed that at some deeper level all this apparent nonsense had to make sense. My tacit life purpose was to discover this deeper level. I started to find answers a few years later, but it wasn’t until I started giving psychic readings that it all came together, when psychically I saw the entire picture.

It was amazing to see how obvious the causes of people’s problems were from this psychic, energy point of view. Even more amazing to see was that the solutions were just as obvious.

I was also in awe of the way each of us is a part of the divine whole and cannot be anything else. There is no separation from Source, just different forms of energy, vibration, frequency. Nothing exists outside All That Is. We are always in It, a part of It. Having psychically seen how we are softly ensconced in All That Is continues to give me hope and comfort even in the most difficult times.”  (pgs. 15-17)

Excerpt #2

”In sessions with clients I continuously move back and forth psychically looking at the human situation and the human perspective and at the divine potential and the divine perspective. Over the years it has become obvious that regardless of the type of difficulty the client faces, the solution is always for the personality to come into more perfect alignment with its soul truth, the Truth of All That Is and align with the fundamental laws of the universe. In this way the human personality is in the best possible position to experience greatest fulfillment in earthly life. It is also in the best possible position to experience greatest soul evolution.

In general, human evolution is a process whereby the human being becomes more and more aware of her divine nature until all the lessons have been learned and the soul no longer needs to incarnate in this earthly realm and can move on to higher levels of learning and experience.

Knowledge of how energy operates in the human energy is a way to consistently come into greater and greater alignment with your divine nature. You use your knowledge of how energy operates to continually transform your earthly challenges and problems into higher consciousness. Through this means you continually come into greater and greater alignment with your divine nature. You progressively become who you really are in truth. Knowing, expressing, being your divine self offers peace and fulfillment.”  (pgs. 21-22)

Excerpt #3

“Everything about you, at the core, is energy. Your thoughts, feelings, intentions, reactions, desires, responses—whatever you generate—exist as energy in your energy field. Every little thing that ever happened to you is recorded and exists as energy in your aura.”  (pg. 31)

 

The Workings of Energy in the Human Energy Field, Gojkovic

 

 

Conscious Talk Mag Issue #2 Now Live! #amreading #life #news

Afternoon,

So we are now live with issue #2. We have great new articles in Bookish news & Reviews Writer’s Life Sex & Relationships Fashion & Beauty, Black & Ethnic News, health and wellbeing …. damn, just about EVERY column has some great reading for you!

Check us out at www.conscioustalkmag.com

 

Here’s a bit about us:

Details: Conscious Talk Magazine will launch its first online edition in August 2017, (we aim to become a print version magazine also). Conscious Talk Magazine is a proud online multi-cultural and diverse global magazine, covering a range of topics. There is something for everyone. Readers will find interesting thought provoking articles, from health and wellbeing , fashion and beauty, bookish news and reviews, sex and relationships, men’s issues, finance,  travel, international news, music, LGBT, film and entertainment to name  just a few. We have a team of talented and diverse writers from all corners of the globe, and walks of life, here to entertain, support and empower our reader’s mind, body and soul.  Conscious Talk Magazine is neutral and does not lean to one side politically, religiously or socially.  Conscious Talk Magazine is published twice a month on the 15th and 30th of each month.

Readership Target: 25-50 years old, male and female, globally situated. Conscious intelligent readers not after Hollywood gossip!

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Throw Back Thursday: In Memory Of Tupac Amaru Shakur 1971-1996 – The Conscious Poet/Rapper /actor #throwbackthursday #music

 

 

Throwing it back musically as usual on a Thursday! This week I thought a bit about Tupac, after a movie marathon the other night. I was up until 4:00 a.m watching the biopic “All Eyez on Me” recently released in memory of  him. I was impressed with the casting, the actor who portrayed Tupac is not only as drop dead gorgeous as the real man, (sorry no matter what you think of him, this man is a stunner!! 🙂 ), the actor also put over Tupac’s characteristics we know him for well.

One thing that I’ve always felt about Tupac is that no matter how “gangster” some my find him, he was at times a very conscious rapper and a poet.  He was in love with Shakespeare! His lyrical content at times was intelligent. Sometimes this may have been ignored. Or it could have been that sadly he was not “media friendly enough”, as his way of showing his consciousness upset and reminded certain groups of society members, about the struggle they turn a blind eye to… but those from poorer backgrounds facing the struggle could relate, no matter what side of the Atlantic they hail from.

Interestingly,  I have read things that suggest Tupac was a contradiction to himself, conscious on one hand but everything that young black / Hispanic males are stereotyped as, like he lived up to what society expect from young males of this background. Personally, I feel his delivery of consciousness came from a certain place, his environment, and who he was skin deep and may always be seen as due to history. And if you don’t understand  or acknowledge that environment you won’t get his consciousness!  He was associated with the Black Panthers. His mother is a very strong woman and supported the human/civil rights movement in the USA. You can’t get more conscious than that. He was a voice for a certain demographic of people around the world facing oppression, only some understood it while others saw it as aggression. I’ll never forget him, his voice represents the thoughts and feelings my own son, who is just three may feel one day growing up in a harsh world.

Today I’m throwing back two of my favourite hits from this award winning, platinum selling actor, poet and yes rapper… “gangster rapper” if that’s what you want to label him as… whatever… using his own words “middle finger up! Only God can judge him.”

R.I.P Tupac

16th June 1971- 13th September 1996

Died age twenty five!!!

 

 

 

Keep ya’ Head Up: Love this song with its conscious words, I can’t help but two step dance!

 

I ain’t Mad at Ya: Video made just a week before his death… makes you wonder about his death.

 

Conscious Talk Magazine: Issue #1 Online! #newrelease #launchday #amreading

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My team and I are pleased to announce we’re now live! We are online with issue #1 . Our long term goal is an in print twice monthly format of CTM also. This month we have some interesting articles on parenting & families, sex & relationships, the writer’s life, fashion & beauty, health & well-being, bookish & author news and more! Each month we have a team focus called Conscious Thoughts, every one at CTM writes up their thoughts and response to some world event….. This month it’s the recent gender discrimination case at Google. Enjoy!

Here’s a bit about us:

Details: Conscious Talk Magazine will launch its first online edition in August 2017, (we aim to become a print version magazine also). Conscious Talk Magazine is a proud online multi-cultural and diverse global magazine, covering a range of topics. There is something for everyone. Readers will find interesting thought provoking articles, from health and wellbeing , fashion and beauty, bookish news and reviews, sex and relationships, men’s issues, finance,  travel, international news, music, LGBT, film and entertainment to name  just a few. We have a team of talented and diverse writers from all corners of the globe, and walks of life, here to entertain, support and empower our reader’s mind, body and soul.  Conscious Talk Magazine is neutral and does not lean to one side politically, religiously or socially.  Conscious Talk Magazine is published twice a month on the 15th and 30th of each month.

Readership Target: 25-50 years old, male and female, globally situated. Conscious intelligent readers not after Hollywood gossip!

 

Check us out here  click:  www.conscioustalkmag.com 

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Writing Prompt: Mid Point State Of Your Year? #reflections #inspiration

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I pulled out my writing prompt book, one prompt for every day of the year. Under today’s date this is the prompt, write up your mid- year  “state of year”... well all-righty then. Hmm, this prompt has really made me stop and think, pull out a bar of chocolate from the fridge (I’m not kidding). Sit back, listen to the rain beat down on my window at a silly hour of the early hours of  Sunday morning, and reflect. I can’t believe we are half way through 2017. For me the year has been a  year of personal growth in a lot of ways. I’d say if I were to sum it up this is what I’d say “growth” as a person, human being, mother and woman.

I took a lot of s*it personally over the last few years. This may surprise you, as I may come across as probably a no nonsense kinda girl. You’re not wrong. But I think sometimes we do things because we feel obligated to, so I did.  I got to a point where I stepped into the last half of 2016, and start of 2017 singing a different tune. It served me well, I’m in a complete new head space. This is personal growth.

So far this year, I’ve knuckled down in what I wish to achieve. I remember I did a writing prompt asking romance writers what their dream would be? Mine is to have a large collection of works our there in the world! So, I’m taking steps toward writing more seriously. As in completing my novels and novellas. I actually can’t believe that in almost one year of signing my first publishing deal, I have six books under my belt. That makes me smile. I’ve also decided to start submitting my work to publishers again. My  full completed romance thriller has been requested by a publisher in the USA, a different one to my last one. They liked my three chapters I sent, all I need to do is write it! With my contemporary romance/ suspense stories I’m browsing publishers that seem to work with romance authors mainly. No more random publishing places, I’d like somewhere I can call home long term for my works. Until I find it, I’ll happily keep self- publishing.

I think the first half of 2017 has been about hard work  and learning too, it’s now I feel like I’m seeing the fruit of this. This fruit has put me on a path to write a whole romance series, of stand alone novellas. Now three books in the hard work has put me on a nice track. Don’t get me wrong it has pulled me away from what I was working on, before this creative idea came to me. I was working on the romantic thriller that got called up from a publisher. It happens to be my first ever real serious idea for a novel before I wrote A Stranger in France!

As a mother I have grown into this role so much and I love it so much. My son is now at an age where his personality is blooming.  I feel like I know who my son is,  and what he will and won’t do as much as I can at this small age. Sounds strange, but I’m sure any parent understands what I mean when you look at your child’s personality. At just three years old he’s a handsome ball of fun, laughs, caring nature,energy and sometimes tantrums.  This first half of the year has allowed me to bond differently with my boy due to his age, and awareness of the world around him. We can do different things now he is a little older and can understand, he can understand what we read in the picture books a bit better now too. He is a true mama’s boy. But not a push over.  A few months ago  his nursery school reported to me one afternoon when I went to collect him ” errm we had an incident today Blake had a fight, yes, yes hmm, we caught him sitting on another boy’s head. The young boy called for help, that’s when we realised Blake got him down on the floor, pinned him down and would not let him go.” Now most parents maybe upset by this or disapprove. My poker face said nothing, inside I was like ” that-a-boy Blakey, hold your own in that playground.” Why? because I  know my boy he is no bully, he is an loving boy, the kind that will come and kiss and hug you and say sorry after a tantrum, he won’t fight unless he is provoked. I’m glad those other boys now know Blake is no push over in the playground, if you provoke him. Did I tell him off? Nah what for? Standing up for himself? That said, if I get poor behaviour reports that’s another story.

This year I’ve also completed a goal I have had for so long! I finally sat three exams in FRENCH back in May. Yep, speaking, reading and writing and listening. My results will be out in August. I swear if I get a B grade or above I’ll be so proud of myself.

Overall, my mid point year review is growth, hand work and learning, a clear direction of where I’m going as a writer and human being. How’s your mid year review? I’d love to read it?? Blog it let me see and link in below if you want.

Random: The Forgotten Art Of Writing #writerslife #amwriting

This evening I swapped one form of writing for another. I left behind my imaginary friends who speak to me, even in my sleep. I picked up a pen and paper, turned on the radio, poured a glass of wine. I  attended to my ever growing letter reply pile. Yep! I have penpals, near and far all over the world.

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This here is my rather messy desk and letters. It’s here that I write my novels, daydream and write hand written letters too.  It’s after 11:00pm here in London, so the picture is not that bright, but you get the jest. Just thought I’d share a little personal picture of my creation space.

How did I start penpaling?:

Good question. About almost five years ago now, I started to take my French language learning seriously. I attended classes, worked online etc, but it was not the same. Learning academically became very boring., and I could not always make my classes. I wanted to make it fun, so I joined some online forums for language exchange partners. I also found out there were people out there, who love letter writer writing as much as me! I found some cool geeks to hang with, and I found some French speaking penpals. 🙂  I was on cloud nine lemme tell ya!

So the whole process started by exchanging my English for French, with others who wanted a language exchange in a fun informal way.  I saw it as a way to remain fluent in the language and improve my grammar. It then grew, I started writing to English speaking pals, who had great profiles that I that contacted me. I have about awww maybe fourteen penpals now.

We write often at least once a month. Of late I’ve dropped off a bit, due to knocking out some serious word count for my books. The pile is growing to respond to.

Why write letters? You can send an email Kim.

Yeah, I hear ya. I know. But as a writer there’s something about hand written letters, that really appeals to me. It always has done, and always will. Some of my penpals I have been in contact with since day one. That’s a long time!

It’s also really cool to get to know someone via a slow burn way. Nothing is instant, and for me personally, the friendships I’ve maintained with my girlfriends via letter is very real. We talk about everything, and I mean everything. Once you click and bond with a pal via letter it’s such a great feeling. I also like to learn about different cultures and ways of life. My pals are all over the world.

Where are your pals?

In these counties:

USA

France

Canada

Austria

Germany

Brazil

Japan

UK

Australia

 

Have you met any of your pals?

Yeah, sure I have I met two actually. My pal who lives in Paris she came to London last year. After a good few years of writing, it was mind blowing to hear her actual Parisian accent.  Also my pal who lives in the south west coast of the UK, in a little place called Cornwell. Miles from London a good five hour train ride. I went to Cornwell on holiday last year. It was amazing to meet her in person we got on just as well, our sons also bonded well.

How has letter writing influenced me as a writer?

Well, if you’ve read A Stranger in France you’ll see exactly how it has influenced me! When I wrote that novel, I used letter writing to help tell the story, via the classic show don’t tell writing trick writers use. It’s a great trick to play out stories, and keep readers turning pages. Many use it via narration in third person or via dialogue, I did it via letter writer using first person from each character’s point of view. I totally broke the rules…  Cool huh? I also used in in Not Just For Christmas too, well that was e-mail to be fair, but I used it as show don’t tell. 

 

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This right here is my journal, on top of my laptop I write my novels on. I also write in  my journal daily. I have done for as long as I can remember. My earliest “dear diary” memories are from primary school, when I was about ten years old! My earlier diaries from my teens and twenties I threw away. I’m gutted I wish to God I never. I have diaries now dating back to when I was thirty years old. New Year’s Eve just gone, I actually read them all! I looked back at my life from the age of thirty -thirty four.

Letter writing is a form of expression I love. You have to sit and think about what you wish to say and how. A bit like when I write a chapter in a book, but a lot less formal… I’m not so caught up on grammar or punctuation. My pals probably read some of my letters and think sheeit and she calls herself a damn writer?  Mwwahha! it’s true I just write as if I’m talking to my pals it’s so informal. My French grammar is not perfect either, even after all these years. My French pals must think I’ve learned very little after all these years. But hey! I’m trying.. the language structure is so different to English.

So that’s my other hobby and form of self expression outside novel writing. I love letter writing.  It’s a forgotten art and I don’t think may people journal either.Who here writes hand written letters still? Anyone?  Who here writes in a  journal??

** listens out for the wind rustling the leaves**