Reflection #4: Ideas and Nerves!

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Today’s reflection was originally wrote on  the back of an envelope of a card I received this week, while sat  on the top deck of the #12 bus from Trafalgar Square (central London) heading home. You can see the original on the right hand side above, my scribbles are hardly readable even to myself, as the bus ride was not the smoothest! Anyway, I thought I’d blog the reflection this evening.To the left the other blue envelope is a response to a writing prompt (from the book I picked up today which you can also see in the picture).  I got creative and responded to a prompt on my journey home on the bus.

Dear ”Diary”,

I feel a real mixture of emotions today don’t get me wrong it has been a good day, I went to book club to meet up with my fellow book worm buddy’s to discus the books read over the last month ( sadly  I never got to finish reading this month’s books due to working on my own manuscript I finally submitted 33 days early!). Anyway, I had those giddy feelings as I walked into Waterstones again ( the UK’s largest/major book store chain) knowing that in just 2 months I’d have my very own book in a store/ published. It was a quiet afternoon at Waterstones in central London today, not much of a crowd in -store. Maybe as the weather in London today  was nice this morning.

While looking around Paperchase for a birthday card  mum, I treated myself to a book ” 642 thinks to write about” a thick book with writing prompts in. I’m super excited! I think I need to slow down with how many of these books I buy, I already have one with 365 prompts.

Today, I also received some very positive feedback from a good friend of mine who read my sample chapters, the one thing I’m paranoid about in my writing ( typos) she spotted! But that happens when you’re up writing at 3am; according to her apparently it did not spoil my story or take way anything from it. She said ( about the chapters she read) ” it’s a good introduction”, ” I was gripped right from the beginning ” and ” I would like to read more” now if you know my friend I’ll call her Ms X she’s a hardcore critic when it comes to writing! Probably as she’s a writer herself and is writing her own book which I can’t wait to read. To hear this feedback from Ms X really helped to boost my confidence and reduce a little bit of my nerves around my first novel she ” liked Kate and could identify with her” ( my heroine) and she ” hated Danny” ( one of the heros) which is exactly how I want readers to feel while reading, I intended for my characters to come across like this.

I gave myself a pat on the back after hearing this, I did kick myself for the minor typos and said ” Oh no I’ll go back and edit some more” the girls at book club looked at me like I’d grown a 2nd head or something all shouted ” NO” ” leave it so readers can see the progress” ” it’s with your editor now spotting typos is their job”. As tempting as it is to go back I won’t I’ll focus on the next idea I’m creating instead.

*Kim looks out the window* London can be so pretty I’m just going over Westminster Bridge( a land mark I used in my book) it’s packed with tourists with selfie sticks trying to take a snap with Big Ben in the background, tour groups walking along . ( Here I ran out of envelope to write on :D)

In a nutshell, today on reflection from hearing some positive feedback I’m a LITTLE less nervous about unleashing my work to the world to read, I have to get used to it it’s too late now it’s with the publisher no going back or changing anything major at this point. I am also feeling extremely creative there are some excite writing prompts in my book, I can’t wait to get stuck in and practice improving my skills.

 

Reflection #3: Path to Success

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What a day, some people work a life time for their dreams to come true and ”die trying’(as 50 Cent the rapper would have us believe). I’ve always believed in the power of the universe, and where there’s a will there’s most certainly a way be positive and work hard. Today I received news that I will have a second book published this year, just 3 months after my 1st!  The book synopsis and sample chapters I  sent over to my publisher have been accepted! My reaction was the same as the first time I opened an email with this news and a contact laid out in front of me, I lost my dam mind! Then  screamed down the phone to my mama. The feeling was no different the second time around, I’ m just as nervous  also.

 Novel #1 has been submitted to the publisher so I’m writing #2 right now, it’s within the romance genre again,  with a Christmas release date. A short novella story. And YES I will get around to finishing my first ever book I started to write a gritty crime fiction story set in London and Amsterdam, the pause was due to life, answering a publisher’s call with my romance /suspense idea, and the fact that I  need to research police procedures in the UK before I felt comfortable moving on with the plot. Good news is 2 of my closest girlfriends can help, they are both qualified solicitors in criminal law, (lawyer if you’re an American reader) so I hope to pick their brains, and finish up that baby.

As I reflect, I think about what I’ve learned when it comes to fiction writing sold for commercial reasons rather than to keep to yourself, the first 3 chapters have GOT to make a reader care about the characters or forget it, who would want to read further if they don’t? Or even offer you a publishing deal. Where possible research, research, research ! And become the characters, really portray what they think and feel so they are almost 3D. If a scene does not add to the progress of the story-remove it

So I’m about to go into a few months of labour again- that’s the best way I describe writing  a novel at times 🙂  slow and steady  painful in places … but I’m ganna get busy and crack this  idea kicking around in my head, and get down on paper in full and give birth to it for the whole world to read. Well romance fiction  lovers at least.

Just a short reflection from me on what I’m learning and to share the news about what’s coming up!

”Dream big, work hard, it might just happen”

 

 

Autonomy: Writing Prompt Response

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With the UK’s recent exit from the EU and the 4th July celebrations taking place in the USA, a lot could be said about the word autonomy, and freedom. I’m going to interpret today’s word prompt response from a personal more individual view  first ,as opposed to freedom and autonomy for the masses in the UK .

To me, I love freedom whether it be financial freedom which I guess we’re all really wishing for some day, to not have to work for someone else. Do our own thing and be our own boss. I also love freedom as a person, to be who you are and be you regardless of what others say or do. Over the years I have learned what oppression can do to one’s mind and emotions if you are subjected to it. In any sense, if your freedom or autonomy is cut off it can be very damaging for you emotionally and stunt your growth as a person. 

Sometimes, it takes a while to realise or learn that you’re a victim of oppression from someone or something else. The day job, the boss, a friend, family member, partner who or whatever can oppress  us as individuals in a negative way, without even realising at first as it’s not something you’re always on the look out for. It’s important to realise the signs of it early and break away from it, or raise it with your oppressor so he/she/they/it can correct their way of dealing with you.It’s like a form of bullying to cut off someone’s autonomy and freedom in any way shape or form, in my personal view. Bullying has never been and will never be a cool thing to do.

So, our current leader in the UK gave us our freedom and autonomy to decide how we should govern ourselves, the UK voted (50 odd % only) to exit the EU as members. Hummm well I was in the 48% who wanted to stay and I’m not ashamed to say it. The leave side I guess felt their autonomy has been removed with membership of the EU over the years. And I guess  the vote was a right thing to do to see what the masses really thought.

In my mind I can’t help but wonder if our need for autonomy and freedom reflected in the vote is really worth walking into the unknown with an exit, as we are literally walking into the unknown we have no idea who are new leader will be now the current one has resigned over the result of the vote, we have no idea how our FREEDOM and AUTONOMY to move around within the EU as individuals will be impacted on, now we have made and exit, and one thing that has always worried me is what about the human rights laws that we get from with in the EU things like maternity leave, employment law rights etc many of these basic human rights come from within the EU… I guess time will tell as the country takes shape post exit. I prey that the want and need for autonomy was not an opportunity cost for us, in a sense that we lose out in the long term.  What I noticed is one side  has gained their freedom and autonomy back with an exit, and the other camp have lost their freedom and autonomy to move around within the EU as members for work, travel and relocation, and potentially even the basic human rights protection from some of the EU legislation in this area.

Freedom!  Everyone should have it, but how to please both sides of the camp? The mind boggles.

In the words of a lady I’ve grown fond of since the release of her Lemonade album as Beyonce would say on her track Freedom:

Freedom! Freedom! I can’t move
Freedom, cut me loose!
Freedom! Freedom! Where are you?
Cause I need freedom too!
I break chains all by myself
Won’t let my freedom rot in hell
Hey! I’ma keep running
Cause a winner don’t quit on themselves

 

 

Reflection #2: Book#2 Proposal Submitted!

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I’ve had a few days off from the day job and I’ve been full of creative beans since I submitted my completed manuscript, for my #1 novel due out in September. After some late night grindin’ I got to work on novel #2 well novella #2 I should say. If you read my last blog post following my manuscript submission, you’ll know that I have a handful of ideas across both crime and romance/suspense genres.

I went with the romance genre as I’ve been feeling in a feel good mood, I’m almost 10,00 words in  with this story. Today (just now) I submitted a query letter, sample chapters and book synopsis for my work to my publisher. I  have to remind myself about the time delay! The state in the USA my publisher is based in are like 7 hours behind London time, and it’s a holiday being the 4th of July so I impatiently await a response ( probably in a few weeks or so to be realistic) with fingers and toes crossed that my proposal is accepted.

From discussions with my publisher regarding a second project  potential Christmas/December release date is on the cards! Just 3 months after the release of my 1st novel. I’m excited, nervous and full of creative beans.

My creativity has largely been pushed by passion my for writing and the genres I write in obviously, but also completing in the word prompt responses by WordPress and also the wonderful blogger I discovered MiracleGirl all the way over in India. If you’ve not discovered her blog you really need to take a look, if you enjoy writing challenges and lots of interesting pictures to use as writing prompts. She has a lovely blog going on there and I really wish her well with it as it has inspired me to write. I also have a book with 365 writing prompts one for each day of the year that I will be making use of in between writing novella #2.

So what have I learned on this journey thus far? I know I have a LONG way to go and things are just starting, but I’ve learned:

  • Writing has taken over my life in between everything else, whenever I get a chance I’m behind my lap top!
  • The WordPress community is a great one.
  • My most creative time is late at night.
  • Editing can be a b*tch! Slow and painful the first time you self edit, as it’s hard to chop your work up and the paranoid state over typos and tense slow me down.
  • It’s nothing to do with fame and fortune (all though every published author would not turn their nose up at this) it’s about the love of word and getting the stories out my head and on paper.
  • Sometimes in life, one door closes in one area of your life and it can be the making of you, seriously. Pushing and fuelling you to keep going  in other areas and open up other doors, you never had as a goal or even thought would be possible.
  • Never NEVER give up! Dream big, work hard, keep grindin’ it pays.

 

Have a great day!

 

 

 

Island: Word Prompt Response

 

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I am the daughter of an immigrant from this beautiful island. It’s  been many years since I’ve laid eyes on this beautiful island. I remember  the beautiful golden sands of Negril beach, walking around Montego Bay area  and hearing the sounds of sweet reggae being played. I also remember the mountains, shacks and more deprived areas of the island also, the police corruption which I experienced myself as a tourist to the island.

 I remember  eating rich and delicious  island foods such as plantains, ackee and salted fish, jerk chicken , callao and drinking plenty of carrot juice my mouth waters at the thought! Sipping the island’s local beer Red Stripe at silly o’clock in the day, in the blazing hot sun relaxing, people watching. I remember the mosquito  bites also now that was painful as I had soooooooooooooo many.

I remember how I  could walk out so far into the Caribbean sea from  Negril’s beach, before the water would reach my hips it was so strange to me.  I love this land, I love this island and I hope one day to go back and show my son this beautiful island.

National Anthem of Jamaica 

Eternal Father bless our land
Guide us with Thy mighty hand
Keep us free from evil powers
Be our light through countless hours
To our leaders, Great Defender,
Grant true wisdom from above
Justice, truth be ours forever
Jamaica, land we love
Jamaica, Jamaica, Jamaica, land we love.
Teach us true respect for all
Stir response to duty’s call
Strengthen us the weak to cherish
Give us vision lest we perish
Knowledge send us, Heavenly Father,
Grant true wisdom from above
Justice, truth be ours forever
Jamaica, land we love
Jamaica, Jamaica, Jamaica, land we love.

It’s interesting I was born and raised in London, do I consider myself English –  well with 33 years here yes I do, but I don’t ever forget my heritage and culture.If I was stuck on a deserted island what would I need with me.

  • My  2 year old son
  • A pen and note pad
  • Bob Marley’s Greatest hits and a CD player, so my son and I could dance and sing to them, as we do most Sundays. Just like my mama did with me growing up.

 

  • BM

 

Jamaica the carib island  I love!

Reflection #1

It’s after midnight and I don’t even know why I’m still up, I have a 5am wake up! As I do Monday- Friday to get myself ready for the ”day job”, that would be teaching and my bundle of joy baby boy ready for nursery. 

As I stood by my kitchen window just now, having a very cheeky cigarette ( yes I am trying to quit I don’t even know why I started again after giving birth), I started reflecting really deeply which I normally do but this time it just felt different. All kinds of things were going through my mind and I felt, pumped with ”good vibes” as my mum would call it, I felt and still do feel so grateful for everything I have right now that is non materialistic or worth money. So instead of taking a shower removing my make-up and getting into bed I pulled out the lap top, boiled the kettle and started to write- or ramble  you decide about gratefulness, I promised I would blog about my journey to my book release and just general life so don’t say I don’t keep my promises.

I don’t know about you reader but I seriously believe in the Law of Attraction, The Secret, a higher being or Universe that protects and guides us, I’m not a religious person or follow faith. (But I highly respect it and like to learn about it, why I am not religious or follow a faith is a whole new blog ramble). Where was I? Yes, so I believe in all that positive good stuff if you put out to ” The Universe” what it is you seek, you shall find or it will come knocking at your door. Don’t get me wrong, hard work and hustle for it is involved also; it does not just land on your lap…. but if you show the Universe what you want, tell it and hustle for it you’ll get it. But you also have to be grateful too.

That said, I’m putting out there to the Universe literally as in the whole of Twitter LOL and the actual Universe that I believe protects and guides us all, if we believe in it, that I’m grateful;so that I can continue to be grateful, learn, have life experiences and do things I have sat back and thought, yeah that might be cool to do and then later made baby steps to achieve it- even when it seems impossible at the time, for whatever reason, money, time, motherhood whatever. That said, I have learned that motherhood does not stop you from achieving anything, it may stop you from going out drinking as often as you used to, but it does not stop you from working towards anything.

 Please, don’t sit there and think gosh she is just on cloud 9 because she’s  about to be a published author- no I’m on cloud 9 because I have good health, a beautiful baby boy who is developing into such a wonderful human being, I’m  LOVING motherhood with all my heart and each day that love just grows; it really has made me I think as a person and women. Hard work but such fun… have you ever done the chicken dance with a 2 year old? It really is  a laugh.  I’m grateful for all opportunities put in front of me so far which allow me to provide for him, I mean  ”day job” opportunities. I’m grateful for each day and the thought of what it may hold, I am grateful for a handful of girlfriends who have just been a god send at times when I have needed them they know who they are, and my girlfriends abroad in  the UK Conwell, America, Canada, France, Germany, Austria and Australia  (my pen pals) y’all my girlfriends too no matter what ocean and time zone separates us I love catching up with you via letter, I’m grateful for all the challenges life has presented me over say the last 6 years, as those challenges have given me heart, hustle and a strong work ethic. So Universe at times thanks for being a b*tch to me I learned a lot LOL…. and the big one I am super grateful for the publisher who took a chance on my 3 chapters submitted in the USA, and sent me a contract for my work to be published later this year. Oh! I am just super grateful as this one I put out to the Universe literally on my visualisation/goals board just before Christmas and did not expect to achieve this any time soon, especially not on my first ever submission. Mind blowing!

So that’s my reflection for today reflection, #1 gratefulness, practice it yourself if you don’t already just reflect for a few moments what have you got non materialistic that you are happy for? Tweet me it, comment below let me and the Universe know.

Catch you all soon

Kim